Monday, April 23, 2012

Things I don't want to hear.

Things I don't want to hear.

It would have been better if you had miscarried.
I'm so thankful I had healthy kids.
Why don't you just let them stop his heart?(one of the options given)
Now you don't have to buy as much baby stuff.
It as God's will/It was fate.(yes I believe this but I don't need to hear it).
Two is going to be so much easier than three.
Two is a lot cheaper than three.
You should just let them take it away and deal with it so you don't have to see it.
You shouldn't cry, It's not a real baby till its born.
Maybe you will be lucky and he will be stillborn.
Just forget about it and focus on the other two.
At least you still have two.

yes...IT IT IT...his name is ASHER. He has a name. I dared to name him. MY SONS NAME IS ASHER.

If you aren't sure what to say, don't say anything. Say I'm sorry, say I'll listen if you need to, say it's ok to cry. Tell me it's not my fault. Tell me the world won't end.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Ashers water is leaking.
On steroids, antibiotics, and mag sulfate to try to keep labor stopped, for the other two.
This doc said its Asher. It doesn't matter, he is going to die anyway.
2 wks. 2 more wks. thats the goal.
On the wall I have a chart of survival rates based on gestational age. I'm 24 wks.

at 24 weeks: 40-70% survival rate

at 25 weeks: 50-80% survival rate

at 26 weeks: 80-90% survival rate

at 27 weeks: greater than 90% survival rate

Sunday, June 13, 2010

For this child I prayed and the Lord has given me what I've asked of Him. So now I give him to the Lord

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Back in the hospital. Have been dealing with preterm labor and trying to stop it, and pneumonia.
Mike is here for the weekend, but come sunday evening if things are pretty stable as they are now, he will be headed back home, but will come back next weekend.

We want to transfer me to the hospital back home, but don't know at this point if that will happen.

Monday, June 7, 2010

Every time I cough I think my head is going to explode. It seriously feels like it. More cough syrup, a breathing treatment, humidifier, and an icepack for my head.

Friday, June 4, 2010

So slightly more than a simple cold, bronchitis. On antibiotics and cough syrup thats making me pretty loopy. As well as making me slow it makes the babies slow and I don't feel them moving as much, I dont like that at all. I dont think they would give me something thats not safe. still worries me

Thursday, June 3, 2010

I have a cold dammit.

I'm sick. just a stupid cold. But even a cold makes my blood sugar go really haywire and high bad. It also means I have to avoid dad(who had his last chemo yesterday! yay!).
I've spent most of the day shut in my room, humidifier steaming strong with a heating pad on my lower back and a hot pack on my neck thats infused with menthol and eucalyptus essential oils. It's actually heavenly feeling. I admit, I can seriously be a whiney baby when I'm sick. Simple colds are the worst though.
Lots of warm fuzzy blankets a heating pad or hot pack, a bottle of water a bottle of juice and a cup of hot tea.
on the list of things that should probably offend me but don't, My mother had some friends over yesterday. She introduced her unborn grandbabies first.